Monday, November 9, 2015

'Leafy Greens'


'Leafy Greens'
By Brian Dykeman 
As influenced by a roll of 'Rory's Story Cubes'

Heading out to the garden for the picking of my morning flower, I was surprised to find Ally from three doors down was already walking among the rows. 
"It's kind of pretty the way the early morning sun casts long shadows on the plants, isn't it," I said.
"Did you just say the word 'pretty,' she asked me, her breath escaping in tendrils of fine, cold morning steam.
"Since when can't a guy say the word 'pretty,' I asked her with a smile.
"You didn't answer my question," she replied, turning her attention back to the garden.
"Yeah, but you didn't answer mine," I also accused, making my way to the garden from my back door steps.
"I think it's hard not to notice a certain amount of magic among the rows," she finally said, glancing over her shoulder at me, hiding a sliver of a smile.
"Me too," I said, but not in reference to the plants.
"I really love that you made this a communal garden," she said as she knelt down to caress the dew from the flat, white petals of a flower I had never picked for my morning flower, but now might just start.
"You're welcome," I replied, even though in my brain it didn't really sound like quite the right response. "You don't find it weird it's in my backyard do you?"
"Not really," she said, "but I do tend to wonder if it benefits from a south westerly location. You know, the orbit of the sun and all that."
Making my way to a violet flower I knelt down myself and picked the ripest flower I could find.
"I hadn't thought about that, actually," I confessed while wondering if 'ripe' was the right word to assign a flower ripe for picking.
"Most guys don't," she said, rising from her position over the flowers, "I know my boyfriend doesn't."
"He doesn't," I asked in an attempt to feign a lack of disappointment I imagined would otherwise be plastered all over my face like a tiny fake smile.
"Hey," she said suddenly, working her way to the cold frame. "If this is a communal garden, why is there a lock on the cucumbers?"
"A lock," I asked dumbly, working my way toward the box fixing the flower to my lapel and putting my knife back into my pocket.
"You do have a key don't you," Ally asked.
"No, I don't," I replied staring at the lock and for three or four heartbeats, mulling over the idea of looking for a rock to smash the thing and make a big show of it for her, like in the movies.
"Are you going to break it," she asked me.
"Actually, I need to get to work," I replied after taking one look at my suit and deciding I didn't need to do something that had me digging around in the soil, destroying my white, French shirt cuffs.
"Come on, roll the dice," she said, putting her hands on her flower clad, sundress draped hips.
"If you want something from out of there just ask Santori," I said, I'm sure he'll let you have it. He just locked it becau-"
"I don't want to ask Santori," she interrupted, "He doesn't get up until after noon anyway."
"Besides," she said, taking off her bleach washed denim jacket and throwing it atop the cold frame while looking at me with a devilish grin, "I don't like asking permission."
"That's a little counter intuitive to the whole idea of communal garden," I said, watching her search for something to smash the lock with.
"What do you mean," she asked, "If it's really 'communal' I'm supposed to be able to take what I want."
"How do you figure," I asked, looking at my watch.
"That's communism, Dan. Everything here is as much mine as it is yours, regardless who did the work," she said with that devilish smile as she bent over frame and peered into its glass.
"I don't think you have that right," I began to say.
"Can I tell you a secret," she asked looking at me from her modified posture over the box.
"A secret," I asked, making sure to maintain eye contact with her, regardless her advertising stance.
"Yes," she said, standing and approaching me with a cute, sheepish smile, inching towards me like there was a crowd of people in the garden instead of just the two of us "a secret just for you."
"Well... I'm waiting," I said with a frustrated chuckle mixed with anticipation and a overwhelming knowledge of the fact I was running late for work because of a girl that apparently already had a boyfriend.
"But you didn't say 'Yes,'" she said, turning away from me and approaching her coat.
"Oh, did you need something like a thought bubble with the word, 'Yes' inside it," I asked.
"Maybe," she said, throwing her coat over her shoulder and once again closing the distance between us, but this time walking up the length of my tie with her fingers and tracing the outline of my tie clip.
"What's the secret then," I asked.
"Well, I don't know if I should tell you now," she said, obviously toying with me.
"And why is that," I asked.
"Well, that's kind of a big, loaded question,  now that I think about it, Dan."
"Oh, really," I asked, before saying her name back to her, "Why is that a big, loaded question?"
"'Cause now that I think about it, you might not respect me if I told you," she said letting go of my tie clip and turning her back to me and her attention back to the cold box.
"Well, that's your decision," I said grabbing my keys from my pocket and began to leave the garden, "Don't break into Santori's box without asking," I said to her as I walked away and she had once again set to bending over the box with no reservation to showcasing her meniscal fundament.

Starting my car I looked down to admire the pedals of the flower I had picked for my lapel when suddenly there she was knocking on the window and indicating to me she wanted me to roll it down.
"I really have to get going," I told her, "I'm already late as it is."
"Well, I just wanted to let you know I decided I will tell you the secret," she confessed, "Even though you have been kind of 'disagreeable,'" I believe was the word she used.
"Alright," I said, not agreeing with her but also not having time to bite at her playful baiting, "What's the secret?"
"It's kind of dumb, but it's the whole reason I wanted you to get into that box for me."
"Which is," I asked, subtly hitting the steering wheel but smiling in her ability to elicit my amusement and not tell me the secret.
"It's because I really like thick cucumbers," she said looking both ways, as if pretending there might be others within earshot of the admission.
Not knowing whether to shit or go blind I decided to cave in to her efforts at being seductive and playfully cute.
"There is a spare key to the cold box hidden in the hole in back yard elm tree," I admitted to her, "But be sure to leave a few behind," I added, "Santori likes really thick cucumbers too."
"Don't you, big guy" she asked with a wink and a toothy smile.
"Nope," I replied as I placed the car in reverse and poked my head out the window, "Not since college."

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Rory's Story Cubes Story: Nozzle


Nozzle: By Brian Dykeman

First the bees all began producing poisonous honey. My father died days after a cup of peppermint tea. Then it was the fish and their poisonous eggs. My big brother's wife miscarried after spreading some on homemade sushi. I knew these events had to be linked but I didn't know the how or the why. Devastated by my father's death I took to the great outdoors, our old camping site on the precipice of a cliff near the local lake and several miles from the hives.
Two nights after my retreat a blinding light illuminated my tent. For about a second, I stupidly thought it might be aliens. But upon opening the tent I discovered I was staring down the barrel of a raging forest fire. Knowing I could no longer stay and grieve for my father or the dire events besieging the town, I trudged off into the forest to save myself.
Several minutes later I happened upon a hidden industrial building. Going into the building at first it seemed unoccupied, until someone approached me from behind in the darkness. Startled half out of my wits I discovered I had met a scientist that happened to be working late. Wondering what I was doing in the building I quickly told him we needed to go on account of the forest fire headed our way.
"Don't worry," the man said, "Wait until you see with your own eyes what happens when we spray the forest with the chemicals we've been systematically getting rid of out here. It's incredibly flame retardant. Just be sure not to get any on you," the scientist said as he led me down the hall towards the chemical room, handing me a pair of latex gloves, "It will seep right through your skin and leech into your gonads and make you sterile."
"Sterile," I exclaimed.
"Yeah," the scientist said, "It also gives off a deadly toxic gas when mixed with sugar."
"Really," I asked, quite baffled.
"Yeah," he replied, "it's a good thing fire doesn't contain sugar, huh? We'd die almost instantly from the resulting gas if it was."
"Yeah, good thing," I said, quietly thanking God I had stumbled upon this scientist that just so happened to be in possession of a chemical that was going to save our lives.
"Hey, where were you camping," the man then asked as he began showing me how to dispense and most effectively spray the chemical on the flowers and foliage the fire was closing in on.
"Out on the ridge about a half mile back," I replied.
"No kidding," he said letting me take over and complimenting me on my newly learned technique, "My coworkers and I were just over there about an hour ago," he said. "Legally we have to go that far to have a smoke."
"That's crazy," I said, "that's really far to go."
"Well, we don't want to be giving anyone cancer from second hand smoke, now do we," the man said.
"Well, I have to commend you," I admitted to the man, "Those are pretty high moral standards to go almost out to the lake just to smoke."
"Oh, we can't take too much credit for that," he admitted, "we were also out there dropping some of the barrels of these chemicals into a storage area we haphazardly constructed near there."
"That's pretty conveniently located," I had to admit to him," wiping the sweat from my brow, "You aren't hiring are you," I asked, hating the commute of my current job and really enjoying myself and the job we were accomplishing.
"With as well as you handle that nozzle, son," the scientist said, "I think we might have a spot for you."
Smiling wide as a mile, I realized maybe hard work and determination were exactly what I needed to cope with my Father's death and whatever the mystery cause of it may have been.
"If we get through this, come back tomorrow to fill out some tax paperwork," the scientist then added. "We take government paperwork and process very seriously around here."
"Say, you don't have a cigarette I could bum do you," I asked.
"Sure do, but like I said, it's against the law to smoke so close to the building," the scientist added, switching the hose to our eighth fifty-five gallon barrel of chemicals and cranking the the pump back on, "and we take laws very seriously around here."
"Oh, right," I replied, realizing the company I was about to dedicate the remainder of my life to was the quintessence of an assembly of professionals, "I must have forgotten."
"Don't worry about it, kid," the scientist replied, "You're already hired."

Monday, September 7, 2015

Billings MT to Gillette WY: Travelogue




My stop in Billings, wasn't exactly what I would call 'Eventful.' Ultimately it was a place to stop on my way to Gillette.

Using the Untappd app I decided to head to the Montana Brewing company for a beer and some food.

One of the only problems I ran into was deciding if I should pay for parking in a lot, or drop coinage into the meter on the street. Pulling into the parking lot several blocks from the Brewery, I approached what appeared to be the payment booth. What I found at the ‘payment booth,’ for lack of a better term, was a box with a slot and a bin that contained small envelopes and a pens:

The definition of the Honor system.

Well… Several problems presented with this rather old method of rectifying the exchange of monetary payment.

First: I only had large bills. I was expecting to pay with a card.

Second: Billings had apparently gotten the same rain I had driven through. The envelopes were all sealed.

Third: I naturally had no desire to pay for parking.

I moved on to the idea of street parking. Upon finding a spot I was in turn presented with the issue of parking meters.

Problem One: I have no change.

Problem Two: Its Saturday evening, there aren't exactly a lot of  businesses that are open in my proximity I can go into and make change. Zero on this block, in fact.

Problem Three: I naturally have no desire to pay for parking.

In turn, I began checking all the meters other various cars were posted in front of. I noticed only several had been paid, but indicative of the expired Liquid Crystal Display that was flashing in the view windows, many had not.

By law of averages, I decided not to feed the meter or endeavor to find change to do so.

With that decided I made my way to the Montana Brewing Company and as I 'the Skypoint' :

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I in turn asked some ‘local appearing’ folks walking down the street if they knew if it was necessary to pay the meters on the weekend. They verified for me it was not and I in turn began to figuratively skip my way down the street to my destination.

Approaching the Brewery it was obvious Sturgis Bike week was having an influence. Even as far away as it still was there were many bikes parked out front. The business was bustling. The patio area was chalked full of folks as was the interior. But as usually happens, there is room at the bar. Upon ordering food (Mac and Cheese) and a Custer’s Last Stout:
it seemed the rather homely woman sitting to my left’ on the other side of a curve was staring at me the whole time. I tried casually glancing to affirm this was the case and maybe see if I would catch her turning away, as people do when they are caught staring. This wasn’t the case. Her attention was dedicated. I decided if she wanted to watch me eat, that was her awkward prerogative. At some point I finally realized she was in fact watching the coverage of some sports event on a silent Television I was sitting directly in line with.

Ticketlessly hitting the road after, I found gas and began to advance to the outer edges of the Montana Border. With physical fatigue beginning to set a road sign along Interstate 90/Highway 87 informed me I was closing in on Custer’s Last Stand. I had forgotten I had planned to see the area. Energy emerged from the depths as I realized something would be breaking up what I had foreseen would simply be a mashing of the pedals for the remainder of the evening. I found myself getting anxiously advancing to see the area.

Once I was upon the exit and over the highway overpass I made the corresponding turn onto Highway 212. To my immediate left was what was toted as a Custer’s Battlefield Trading post. A building with an exterior composed of old, unpainted wood, surrounded by other reclaimed, empty old and equally rustic and rotting wood structures; the likes of which may have previously existed as chicken coups or smoke houses that had been picked from areas obviously foreign to its current resting existence, I pulled the car over and made my way inside to… purchase a ticket or… whatever I needed to do to see the site.

I was quite surprised when I found the Trading post was strictly a gift shop. Obviously… a gift shop. A comprehensive one at that, Native American and Last stand souvenirs and literature galore, I utilized the misappropriated stop to relive myself and also buy a few conservative souvenirs. Feeling like I had been commercially fooled stop in, I verified with the woman selling me the trinkets “the battlefield is across the street.” She nodded and as quickly as I could without drawing attention to the fact I was trying to rush, I made way to the car and made way to the actual location of the ‘Last Stand.’
    
Why in my mind I imagined; what actually exists as a National Park, would for some reason be located behind what was tantamount to ‘a themed attraction’ I couldn’t begin to say. But it began to resonate as foolish to me as I pressed down the gas and spun my tires upon the parking lot’s gravel to make it to the ‘Actual’ Last Stand.

So, it goes, I once again couldn’t believe I had been duped again into going to the wrong place, as is my way. I advanced up the long road I imagined was a that long drive way to the Battlefield.
To think I would have to ‘purchase’ a ticket to see a graveyard. I smiled and shook my head as I pulled up to the closed, black, wrought iron gates. Seeing no one in the guard shack I slowly shifted my attention to the sign with the Park’s posted hours.

8:00 AM -  8:00 PM
My watch: 20:06 (8:06 PM)

God damn, Trading post. My eyes look over the rest of the information:

Cost for the day:
Private Vehicle : $10.00
Pedestrian : $5.00

… Tickets.

Negotiating the car into a U turn, I figuratively throw up my hands knowing even if I hadn’t gone into the gift shop I wouldn’t have had time to see anything in the park worth the fifteen bucks I would have had to pay to go in; had they even let me do so with such a short amount of time before the 8:00 closing time.

And with the sun setting directly ahead of the length of the park’s long driveway I set out to find put some of Wyoming’s landscape behind me.

Somehow the darkness made the drive drag on. And dark it was. Aside from the headlights of other cars, there was a complete lack of ambient light. Nary star, moon or street light it felt as if nothing existed outside the limits of my car’s own illumination. Pulling into a gas station that cut the night with its own signage I verified this observation with a local that gassed up his own rig. “Where do you live,” I asked, aiming my sightline up and down dark streets that didn’t exist past the limits of the light the station emitted. “Here, in town,” he said. “Dark as sin out here,” I added. A complete absence of light being something I hadn’t been around in quite some time…. Maybe never. He laughed and replaced the Gasoline Nozzle. “Have a good night,” I said before he replied some respective courtesy and disappeared.

Strange that small talk seems to be so foreign or abstract now a days. Even mustering the courage to advance it sometimes seems ill conceived.

Advance upon Gillette was much of the same: Zero to little light. That was until the city lay two or three miles away. But when I was outside town I knew it. Billboards littered both sides of the highway.
Hotels, Motels, Mcdonalds… whatever.

My aim though, was Walmart. Why?
Well, apparently; as unglamorous as it may seem, Walmart allows people that are traveling… in R.V.’s anyway, to stay in their parking lot. I gambled that, maybe me camping would go unnoticed, or at least, wouldn’t be frowned upon and if it was, I’d explain myself and angle to be able to stay until morning if it was a problem and or sleep in the car or move on to somewhere inconspicuous… who knew, I’d cross that bridge when I got there, should it present itself.

Reaching Walmart, I drove around its sizable, shared and occupied parking lot. There were many R.V.’s and even a Semi Tractor Trailer or two occupying the area. I drove around for quite awhile, looking for the most pristine area to bed down for the night. Most of it… like a Walmart parking lot would, looked unappealing. Donation Dumpsters, Bright lights, for better or worse, illuminating the grounds, and a lot of open, treeless ground in areas where I might like to set up and go unseen from the road and parking lot, if possible. Advertising my presence wasn’t exactly my goal, should camping there without an R.V. be unwarranted.

But before too long I made my way to the empty portion of the parking lot shared with Walmart by a KMart. 
Funny, as I remember K Mart being the shit when I was a child… Home of the Bluelight special and Cherry Icee. Anymore… who knows what’s in there. KMart seems to stand as more of a beacon for the White Trash of our times that even the White Trash attracted to Walmart won’t lower themselves to entertaining.

Before too long, at the very back of the parking lot, in the grass next to a Van was a tent. With plenty of space behind the van for me to pull in ahead of an RV I decided to pull in and set up my bed for the night. Unlike Walmart, the Kmart portion of the lot; for better or worse, was not illuminated. Beside the tent were two men. As it turned out one was sleeping in the van that night and the other was going to be occupying the tent.

As I broke out and began setting up my cot the man in the tent approached and we began talking. The other man retired to his van and I began to learn the gentleman in the tent was, what he calls ‘Walking on Faith.’

Apparently everything he had was gifted to him by people he met on his journey to Colorado. To include the cloths he was wearing. He joked he didn’t start off naked, but he didn’t exactly explain how he didn’t start off naked, if everything was gifted to him. I’m supposing he tossed whatever he had originally. It turned out he had been going through Sturgis the days prior and had met the man in the van who, from the sounds of it was going to be taking him all the way to Colorado.

This was quite the man to meet. He was a close talker, at times getting in the way of me trying to set up my own camp and at others, pumping me for information I wasn’t too keen on offering up to a stranger. Well intentioned enough, I came to find out he also had a Dog with him (in the tent) that he spoke of affectionately. Named ‘Bear,’ of all things he spoke of having to often talk to the authorities because reports of animal abuse would often get called in as he walked the roads and highways of the nation. People being highly concerned with the welfare of the dog, assuming it was under duress being so far away from towns and cities on the road; at least as it was related to me.

Looking at his tent as I opened my car doors and closed them on the top of a camouflage tarp I purchased (also at a Walmart) several days before,  I eyed a sizable Radio Flyer wagon under a heap load. “Some people gave me the wagon,” he said, making his way over to the load. “Another guy gave me these materials to fashion into this harness,” he said, lifting the Wagon’s handle and showing me the harness I could barely see in the low light. “Everything I have has been gifted,” he reiterated. He continues to regard his trip and how things have worked out; the harness coming into his life when he just about couldn’t physically pull the wagon by its handle anymore, Dog food and water coming into his life when he was just about out, et cetera.

Listening and interacting, asking questions and trying my best to engage I decide to let my fellow camper know its time for me to crash. Not taking the hint, he continues to talk about an ailment he recently found out his wife is suffering with; heart aneurysm or some such seeming death sentence, if I remember correctly. He relates that people he has encountered and explained this to have asked him if he is doing the walk for her, for donations, et cetera. He says, no its not for that and goes on to talk about the things he is directly concerned about, making it to Colorado, his dog. I figuratively scratch my head at the idea he just left his wife to her life to 'Walk on Faith.' His concern really seems to be for immediate concerns and relating what he has discovered during the course of his journey. He then tells me he's asked many veterans if they have 'Killed anyone,' a question he also asked me. I let him know it isn't the best of questions to ask Veterans, rude more or less. And he doesnt seem to understand. He says he likes to do it to test and see if the people he is talking to think they are 'Bad Asses.' I internally shake my head, he doesn't want to be told my concerns for asking such a question and the harm it could potentially cause him asking the wrong question. Up until this point he hasn't seemed like the kind of person that would instigate conflict, but with his resolve to seem amused at the prospect and continue to justify asking people even as I try to explain my view, I let it go and reexamine if only for a little while who he might really be underneath his seeming exterior.  

I ask about social media, if he is relating his journey via that medium. He skirts the topic aside from mentioning he has considered it so far as activating an account, but not checking in with it. He further introduces the fact he has a phone but doesn't really use it for that. And even though I am quasi curious how he pays for data and service 'On Faith,' I skirt the idea of actually asking, not really one hundred percent committed to finding out if it such realities blow a hole in his holistic journey on generosity; finding myself  I'm also puzzled 

I again expound it is probably time for me to go to sleep he finally gets the clue. Taking a final drag on his cigarette he agrees and retires to his tent as I crawl under my tarp, onto my cot and into my sleeping bag.

My first night openly ‘Urban Camping’ I restlessly toss and turn at the sound of the tarp pulling taut and slack against the incoming gusts of wind. I obviously didn’t pull it tight enough against the cot and under its legs. Learning a lesson for future camp set up.         

       

Merits mentioning:
The Painted Road Project:
I was searching for info on the downtown Billings Skypoint sculpture and in the midst of looking through results on Google images I saw an image of the hay sculpture I saw when heading to Dobson, MT. In their particular post along they covered the advance this post concerns and more. I was a little jealous they went through the Badlands of South Dakota, as I drove right through it but that's later... Anyway, check 'em out and see some of what I saw on my way to Gillette, Wyoming.




      

Friday, August 14, 2015

Great Falls, MT to Billings, MT

Great Falls, MT to Billings, MT



After many trials and tribulations with something like thirty pages of new material added to pages I had previously considered done and ready to be left alone; in addition to any number of pages of work for other works, to include several books I powered through:

Colin Quinn's: The Coloring Book:
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and My Eskimos: A Priest in the Artic By Roger P. Buliard (Research)

I decided it was time to pick up and continue on with my trip. The chapter I was currently on was fighting me with all its moving parts and like the two previous chapters that I had considered finished, I was only adding more and more material to it as I revised.

With the annual Sturgis Bike Rally in full swing during the week I planned on going through South Dakota I seemed it might be perfect timing on my part to stop by. The problem was, the population in South Dakota is said to increase between One to One and a half million people the week of the rally; all in that area of the state. The town and surrounding area (Mount Rushmore, Keystone, Deadwood, on and on) is literally chalked full of people and motorcycles. In addition to that, I’m not on a bike and I absolutely hate crowds. The compounded problem of finding a place to park my car when I arrive and finding a place to stay in a area of the country where hotel rooms and camp grounds are booked out up to a year in advance with at least a 300% price increase in some circumstances, the reasons not to go only continually added up in a Con column juxtaposed against the two items in the Pro column: I wanted to be able to say I went to Sturgis on the 75th anniversary of the Rally and I was more of the desire to drive through South Dakota than all the way through Wyoming and Nebraska or Kansas as an alternate route to reach my next destination in Lawrence. 

Against the many warnings and comments through sites such as Trip Adviser, suggesting to anyone simply traveling through to 'Go Around,' and find something else to do, I decided I was going to be bold and head that way regardless. 

On the first leg; through an area of Montana I had never been through, it was interesting to see how much of the area wasn’t just the plain and farm land I assumed it would be; even though, lets be honest, a lot of it was. The first thing of interest I came across were some… Hay sculptures, I guess you could call them, outside of Hobson.




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From there I stared out across the miles of rolling hill land at a giant, unfurling, grey cloud of dense precipitation rolling itself into the area like a hulking Rhino running down a dirt road in slow motion, the dirt it was kicking up forever obscuring everything that lay beyond and behind the path it had already traveled. The Rain from the incoming storm caught up with me about the time I reached Eddie’s corner; the station everyone told me to gas up at because there wasn’t a station between there and Billings, which wasn’t at all true, I counted at least four between Eddie’s Corner and Billings:

For several miles I enjoyed driving through what turns out to be one of the most ambitious wind farms in the country. A fact which was hinted at by the gigantic windmill prop laid on its side for display next to one of the town’s bars you pass coming down into the town of Judith's Gap. The figure of some 5 million pounds of rebar used in the construction of the Farm's concrete bases and 22 miles of connecting roads between the wind mills comes to mind from what I read on one of the placards in front of the prop. I can only guess the nearby picnic table was just as much for eating as it was to provide some semblance of scale to the prop. It was so massive my eyes and brain stopped comprehending its size to a certain extent; even though I was standing right there gazing upon it.




After pushing through that section of plain country I soon found myself traveling down giant swaths of what I can only best explain were mile wide culverts peppered with beautiful trees and farming communities, likes of something out of the Briar Rabbit and Tar Baby or Mickey and the Beanstock Disney cartoons; very beautiful land about ~60 miles from Billings.

Upon reaching Billings; after another stretch of flat lands, to my right I was noticing a lot of vehicles on the shoulder, but beyond a single line of tall trees I couldn’t really make out what was beyond or why all these cars would be parked there. After several hundred yards I started getting glimpses of the city of Billings, it was hundreds of feet below the top of a cliff I was apparently driving upon…  I in turn parked and made my way down a bluff to the cliff rock face below to take in the expanse of the city below. 


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(To be continued)

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Adult Identification, Vibrations, the First Leg, and a Poopy tale.



For a few people I’m sure it felt like I left town rather suddenly.

Fact of the matter was, I was drastically late in my evacuation. I left almost two and a half weeks behind my subjectively proposed schedule. I suppose for the most part that was on account of my misinterpreting how long it would actually take to accomplish the obstacles I put in front of myself. Apparently I can’t anticipate how long certain things take to complete. But interestingly enough, it also came down to a lack of energy, over-commitment; thanks to getting hired onto a new job the same day I quit my last job, and my peculiar need to do things a certain way.

(Look to my meticulous attention to detail when it comes to certain aspects of car maintenance in previous posts as an example.)

That said, I finally arrived at my first defined destination as of the evening of June 22nd, 2015

The legs of my Travel weren’t all too long thanks to the family members that welcomed me into their home along the way.

To them I am extremely grateful.

I write this with wholehearted nameless acknowledgement of those that opened their home to me because I was also met with negative vibrations in more than one instance, not even three hours into the journey.

I set out on this journey with an astute awareness of my age and the responsibly associated with the pressures I feel and understand in our current culture; or at least in my mind, that come with ‘being’ an adult.

(It’s a large and running theme and philosophical problem that is present in a lot of the work I have yet to release to the world, and in turn, I really wanted to personally address the problems I have with it within my own personal commune in life and with this journey; as I consider it an issue and over concentration of my mental constitution. It often contributes to seeming dramatic hindrances in my life.)

To address this I decided to make a point of taking myself out of my comfort zone, not just in quitting my job, moving out of my home and storing all my things so as to leave and travel, but in how I was going to approach doing all those things. Typically I would simply locate my destination and make as direct and expedited an effort to get there as possible. In some cases that would translate into a twenty hour or more drive without resting, to which, I would then rest for a day or so to recover.

And for what?

Well, an overall desire of not putting a person out is my typical concern, especially since people generally go out of their way for a guest when they have one and it isn’t my desire to have people do that.

For me, I want to have as little of an impact on people’s as possible, showing no indication of having been or being present. In my mind it is the least I should do when bringing myself into someone’s life. This can be difficult because so many people angle to be gracious hosts, seemingly putting there every day life to the side in order to try and take on an effort to also entertain guests during their stay.
Speaking for myself, it seems like a huge inconvenience.

Sidebar:

I once got an out of the blue request from a person I had only just met to help them by way of picking them up at the airport because their ride to where they were staying had fallen through and they had no money for a taxi.
Inconvenience One: It was some time after ten o’clock at night and as I had just gotten off work, I was already in bed about to fall asleep. I had to get up, get dressed and…
Inconvenience Two: Portland International is about a 45 minute drive one way from where I lived.

Anyway, I know bad things happen to people all the time and picking someone up and driving them somewhere wouldn’t be the worst thing in the world.
Upon picking them up I came to find out not only did their ride fall through, but so did their place to stay. The next few minutes of the drive turned into a conversation about how tired they were and letting me know not only did they need a floor to sleep on but they were in town for a court date the next morning. They didn’t know what they were going to do. Things just kept getting more suspect by the minute and without a destination for me to drop them off at, the drive was basically now aimless and the discussion on his end was ironically avoiding directly asking if they could stay where I lived, leaving it open for me to provide an invitation.  
Inconvenience Three: Living with my sister and her husband, not only would I basically be putting up someone that was still a stranger to me, it was putting my sister and her husband into an awkward situation.  Nobody likes to walk down stairs in the morning to find a stranger laid out on their hide a bed. And waking them up after midnight to explain the situation isn’t the easiest thing to do either, especially when those people get up very early to go to work.
Needless to say, I got in contact with my sister and we decided it would be alright to let them stay.

So, after going for McDonalds so they could eat something, setting up the bed in the Living Room and determining we had to be up in the next four hours to get them to court in Beaverton on time; I’d be dropping them off in downtown Portland and they would figure it out from there.
At that point I asked them if they needed anything before I went to bed and they assured me they were going to pass out as soon as their head hit the pillow.
That sounded just fine to me as I was still apprehensive having them there, no sooner did I make it to my room and lay down to sleep myself did I then hear them begin walk to the bathroom.

“Okay, they need to use the bathroom.”

The water was then turned on in the bathroom and after what seemed like five minutes was still running at a pretty good clip.

“Okay, they’re one of those people that run the water so you can’t hear them pissing.”

After what felt like another five minutes, the water was finally shut off and they could be heard walking back to the couch.

No sooner did I begin to fall asleep again, once again they went back to the bathroom, turned the water back on and spent about half as long as the first time in the bathroom.
Once they had returned to the couch I went downstairs to ask if they needed something.
They informed me they had gotten sick, but they were okay now.

Asking again if they needed anything and being assured they were alright I turned in for the remainder of the early morning.

The rest of the event was pretty straight forward, waking up early and dropping them off in Portland for their trial.

It wasn’t until about a week later that my sister asked me if there had been a problem in the bathroom. I had completely forgotten/decided not to check about the person telling me they had been sick. I asked my sister what the problem was, as long as the guest had had the water running I figured maybe there were traces of vomit somewhere on the sink that hadn’t been seen or cleaned up.

Little could I have imagined apparently my sister had gone to the empty the waste basket in the bathroom and found not only was there some toilet paper in the basket but there was also some sizable pieces of skat in the basket along with it.

I couldn’t believe what she was telling me so I went down to the bathroom to see for myself. While my sister in all her nursing experience had already cleaned up the left behind refuse, sure enough there were stains on the cloth waste basket liner my sister had made for the basket. After making it a point to ask my sister why in the world she would make a cloth liner for a wastebasket, after all you never know, at some point someone might… you know, throw some skat in there for some inconceivable reason. There were also some jokes aimed at whether she was sure her or her husband hadn’t made the mess; maybe she or he sleep walked… or were sleep crappers… with foreign bathroom practices and had up to this point gone undiagnosed as a ‘Sleep Crapper’

While I have no frame of reference to pass complete judgment as to why someone wouldn’t flush said substances down the toilet; people do after all drop used toilet paper in waste baskets in foreign countries, even though the person that stayed over wasn’t from a foreign nation, as far as I knew, and it wasn’t just used paper they threw away, my overall focus at that moment was to bear witness to the figurative murder scene my sister said existed in the bathroom.
Little did I know my sister had put the wastebasket back in such a way said poop stain on linen trashcan liner was hidden from sight to anyone sitting on the toilet or entering the bathroom. The way she made this possible was by having the tarnished area facing out leaving anyone that might go to grab the basket with the high probability of grabbing the basket were the… skat stain was on the liner; my own fingers were only minuscule units of measurement away from touching it when I pulled the basket it out to see for myself.

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Anyway, back to my perception that dropping in; although maybe that’s the wrong way of phrasing it in certain cases, on people presents them with an inconvenience, I decided to try and put that idea to the back of my mind, as my ideas aren’t always universal, and open myself up to being more present and accepting of the world around me. While I have no idea how to ultimately address certain facets I feel are sometimes a deficit to character, I figured putting myself in situations I’d usually feel uncomfortable with might be a good way to get out of my own way and to some extent possibly address life in a different way.

So,
Instead of pushing through and not staying with anyone, I decided to make a point to stop at various times, if not to meet with and stay with family but to maybe even stay with strangers, i.e. via couchsurfers.com or at the places I stopped along the way.
Thankfully, this week met me with many positive vibrations from certain long not seen relatives.
Even though I was also met with vibrations not so pleasant from others, I simply let those things occur and moved past them.
Inevitably following the positive and the random worked out for the better than just shooting straight through. This led to not only having several drawn out and in depth conversations I would never have gotten to have had I pushed through to my first destination, it also lead me to explore aspects of the world I have long been uncomfortable with and tried hard to avoid and wasn’t expecting to encounter.

Following the tracks…
Forgot to turn on tracks in Portland.


Road to Big Fork






Scenic turn off I stopped at to work on and focus on a Zen tangle instead of driving.
My scenic spot/Zen Tangle inspiration.
 
Scenic Turnout outside Lincoln, MT. for Zen Tangle

Incomplete Zen Tangle, Complete in the moment, incomplete by conventional mind.
That moment you find your package on the shelf



Monday, June 1, 2015

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It has been a busy few weeks as I get things in order before I gear up to leave: Primarily changing out the clutch on the Eagle. Since I had to pull back the transmission to do so, I bought a transmission lift:




...and being as I was going to have to at the very least slide the transmission back after I detached it from the engine, I figured I would pull it out completely as it was a mess from a previous oil leak and who knows how many miles of driving and offroad use before I purchased the vehicle:




As you can see from the scraping of the dirt on the bell housing and the clean aluminum underneath, the whole trans was disgusting.

The inside of the bell housing where the input shaft, fork and carrier bearing are located was also black with oil and what I imagine was material from the worn clutch disc; that or a ball of yarn somehow got inside the housing and spent the remainder of its life rolling around and mixing itself in with the oil to create the tar like substance it took about three plus hours to scrape away and clean.





'Wax and Tar' remover by Rustolium is amazing and not too harsh on your person to use, it seems like it is citrus based to some extent.' Berryman's B12 Carb Cleaner' is also amazing albeit better functioning, but it eats away the latex gloves you should be wearing. After that, whatever your skin happens to absorb can't be good for you, so I refrain from using it unless I absolutely have to.

Barring the quality of photos taken with a camera phone at night by the light of a waxing moon and shed light, The surface the clutch cover (left) had grooves (Lighter colored shiny rings) from the clutch disc (center) wearing down to the rivets that hold the pad material to the plate.While the flywheel (Right, under the clutch disc); which also touches the clutch disc also had wear, it wasn't bad enough not to be able to machine it down and use in the future if needed, that said, I bought a new flywheel anyway, not knowing if the flywheel pictured was warped or unusable. In the end, I retained the flywheel and took the clutch parts back to Autozone to be recycled.  

While I don't have pictures of the assembling the clutch, you can see the three parts disassembled and here are the newer ones assembled below. (Barring the inclusion of a picture of the removal of the old pilot bushing and an installation of the new that I hammered into the end of the crankshaft.)
Pilot bearing/bushing in the very center, where the
alignment tool (diagonal black piece is protruding ) 
Snapchat Clutch Rainbow of completion

In the midst of all of this, that is: depending on time of day, how my back was holding out and my overall desire as to what I wanted to work on, I was also working on the floor of the cab, getting it ready to reassemble. It has been sans a carpet for close to a year while I scrapped all the old tar paper out to check for rust. After that was done I have been installing Dynamat when I found the time. Laborious process to say the least 
Once that was finally done; the rear of the car was also finished sometime back, I turned my attention to the torn, old and dirty carpet.





After throwing in the carpet and adding in the truck deck one-piece floor mat, the interior is now in a state of final appearance, barring the hole I need to cut into the mat to drop in the floor shifter and the putting the chairs back into their installed positions.   
Over exposed, Sans photoshop or the desire to invest time in adjusting levels at the moment.
Returning to a cleaned transmission:  

Drying pants.
Somehow looks smaller than it is.

What else have I been up to outside the vacuum that is my project car?
Not much, actually.